Life's a play.. I'm the director

This is an 'excerpt' from my diary..editted and abridged..you have to be my best friend to read the original.. 4th September, 2007 Dear diary, 4.oo AM..Amma(mom) woke me up from sleep..somewhere deep down in sleep (not knowing the time, but knowing it was abnormally early)..I was, kind of, ready with my lines, "We don't have college today Ma, its Janmashtami.Let me sleep"..But, what I heard from her was something I rather never wanted to hear,but knew deep down that it was inevitable.."Thatha (granpa) is no more"..For a while,I just couldn't take it..though knowing well what I heard,I replied out of lack of words, "What nonsense?"..That was probably the most absurd reaction I had ever given to anything. My mind was not prepared. I was not ready to get out of my room now, I thought Nani (Dad) would be crying..and I did not want see that. I was not ready for a scene like that, and will never be, coz that's the last thing I would

This is officially the first poem I've written..after a series of some senseless others..this is how it goes.. "I have an announcement to make, I am missing, please bring me back for heaven's sake. I am lost in the woods of life, every tree of which knows me. I am lost in the bushes of gossip and strife, every leaf of which knows me. I became a flower in the mushy lands, all my nectar, the back biting bees sucked in, all my petals the liar,goat chewed up,cruelly. I lost myself,please bring me back. I flew like a bird in the winter deserts, my feathers,the ruthless little kid plucked away, my body, the hungry hunter burnt away, I 've lost myself in this coldness, please bring me back. A reward will be given to anybody who finds me, I have my love to give, not any fee. I am lost in this heartless world, please bring myself back to me."